Book Review – Addicted to Dimes!

Come have a sit-down!

Come have a sit-down!

I recently finished the book Addicted to DimesConfessions of a Liar and A Cheat, by Catherine Townsend-Lyon. Before I start talking about the contents of the book, I want to first mention why I was so interested in reading the book. I myself, have never cashed in my mortgage payment for a trash can full of shiny coins, but I don’t find that at all revolting. That did not actually happen in the book, I am just making a point. Being a recovering heroin addict, I wanted to look back at some of my own past “gambling spree’s” to see where my addiction may manifest in the gambling realm as well. Let’s take a look.

Any gambling activities I have done have always been during vacation time. I haven’t been in a steady “betting environment” long enough to know if my excitement of placing a bet, my thrills and rushes I experience during gambling could lead into something much more sinister and dangerous. Like compulsive gambling. This book has made me look within myself, to be brutally honest with my past actions during my own gambling entertainment. A person with even a small seed of compulsive or addictive behavior should take the time to read this book. That goes for all of you who sleep with your IPhone. I use my phone as a pillow and somehow thought sticking needles full of heroin and cocaine into my arms was justifiable so, I think I fall under the “you better pay attention, this may benefit you jackass” category.

EVALUATE YOUR$ELF HONE$TLY

If I lived in a state where slot machines were tucked in the corners of local gas stations or if I lived where casino’s were being built on every corner, could I become a compulsive gambler? Could you? If your addicted to your phone, could you become addicted to a bigger electronic box that shot out money? How many times have you lost more money than you allowed for your gambling entertainment? Have you ever told others that you “broke even” when you had actually lost money?

MY GAMBLING EXPERIENCE$

I'm a natural!

Wow I’m getting pretty good at this!

While sporting a large transparent sun visor and a bright and busy tropical button-up, I have had many serious conversations with Blazing Seven’s, Wheel of Fortune, and many other flashy slot machines. I’m sure I was rather tipsy to believe I was actually pulling off such an ensemble, but the real question is- Did I think talking to a steel electronic box would make any difference in the outcome of my net losses? Speaking to it like it was an old friend who owed me large sums of money. Asking it to “please please please pay out BIG!” The casino atmosphere with a shot of booze made the nonreciprocal conversations seem less ridiculous but none-the-less I would have better luck wooing a rapist.

$$$JACKPOT$$$

Of course there have been a couple times when I have won a couple mini progressive jackpots. One was for about $140 on a nickle slot and another for $80 on a penny slot. Oh, I forgot to mention- they were about 6 years apart. Those rare and exciting “you are now my slot machine for life” moments is what makes me think it is possible for me to win the 45 billion dollar Powerball. If I can win 80 dollars (after dropping $110 into the machine) then God must want me to win a significant sized chunk of the Powerball Millions! That is obviously a slight exaggeration and I have never played Powerball but during those winning times, it is easy for me to think luck is on my side. I would easily dismiss how many times the memorizing lights and sounds of the pig irons continually tricked me until they devoured the last remaining contents of my coin bucket. Before leaving for home, I would always put every last coin back into the machine’s greedy and hungry little coin holes. Luck may be on my side but it will come in the form of a lightning bolt.

BEATING THE HOUSE

When I was in jail from July 2006 to Aug 2007, I decided “hey, I have a little bit of free time- I’ll learn how to count cards!” I will be a card counting pro! I will morph into Rainman! Needless to say, I still suck at Blackjack and I have made some substantial sized bets considering my 3 digit bank account. I have yet to quit my day job working nights for a professional poker gig.

Any time someone asked me how much money I had lost, I always had the same response; “I’m about even.” About even usually meant I have lost a couple hundred dollars. Of course their response was “Whoa! I’m even too!” In my head I was thinking, You’re full of shit.

I live in Utah where gambling is illegal and if caught, you will likely burn in hell for all eternity or they will issue you a citation. I think the final say is left up to the judge but hopefully you get the citation. Maybe living in a state without slot machines or Keno is a good thing for someone like myself. I am the kind of person who would sell his car for gas money. Looking back at some of my past experiences with slot machines and poker tables, I think it is quite clear that I could easily become a compulsive gambler. Having this knowledge before-hand is a huge help and I owe it to Catherine’s book- Addicted to Dime’s. So let’s get to the meat and potato’s of my post.

Everyone! Can I have your full undivided attention...

Everyone! Can I have your full undivided attention…

THE REVIEW

Addicted to Dimes was not full of an agglomeration of impervious vernacular that couldn’t be axiomatic or that needed to be referenced with a dictionary. The book used very friendly words which unlike my previous sentence, was quite nice and free flowing. At just over 200 pages, It was a fairly quick read. The time-frame of the book covers Catherine’s early childhood up to the recent past, (approx 2012). The beginning of the book caught my attention right away. As she fleshes out each character in her childhood, I couldn’t help but get involved in her brutal and painful upbringing. As she gets older, the family dysfunction and abuse continues to be jaw-dropping and emotionally unjust- especially for Catherine. Because of the books quick and emotional start, I could not put the book down. I felt the book was told with honesty and raw vulnerability. Writing a book that uncovers all your guilty admissions and character defects is nothing short of an extended, but story ridden Step 4. A fearless moral inventory. When most people write out their Step 4 and tell another person about it, they then destroy the damning evidence. Not Catherine- she printed off thousands of copies for all to read. I must give her credit where it is due. I am scared to death for the day my book makes it to the printing press. Telling the world all of my deepest darkest secrets sounds as fun as walking around Wal-Mart butt-naked on a Saturday afternoon.

The book chapters were different from many other books I’ve read and I really liked how it was laid out in more of a sub-chapter format. The sub-chapters were short and I have always been a fan who cheered on shorter chapters.

There are a few times in the book where Catherine felt it was necessary to apologize for calling out (in the book- to the reader) her family for their terrible dysfunction. I didn’t think it was necessary just because I never once was on the side of her parents.The truth is her family structure was dysfunctional because of the parents. They are to blame for the abuse and the generational duplication of the dysfunction. That is not young Catherine’s fault, or her young siblings. I did not feel an apology was needed.

As the book begins to progress into Catherine’s addiction, she does a great job describing how easy it becomes to justify your actions in addiction. I related so closely with that in my own drug addiction and even some of my gambling experiences. That really made me stop and evaluate myself. It was a very powerful piece in the book for me.

Catherine’s story leads in to a key relationship which she is still in today. This relationship shows us that no matter how difficult life gets, the love thatΒ  binds relationships is essential for their ability to continue on. I thought the relationship dynamic was fascinating and well dialoged. I was hoping to eventually read more about this character’s background but it never came. It was probably left a bit on the thin side because it wouldn’t have been hugely relevant to her story. Maybe it was more of an interesting curiosity on my part.

At the climax of the story, it resembles a tornado, a volcano, and a tsunami playing shuffleboard in a trailer park. With the majority of the book dialog being in retrospect, it made the climax of the story a little less intense but maybe that is okay because I forgot to blink on a number of occasions.

Wrapping up the end of the book, I felt like Catherine still has some anger towards some of her past. Not just with her relationships, but her past situations as well. As an addict, I know for myself, anger, judgements, injustices, guilt and resentments are draining on my well-being so I hope she has resolved these issues and comes to terms with everything in her follow-up book. Catherine does a great job assisting readers in addiction help and assistance. Directing the readers to many different options for recovery. Where gambling is not seen by society as the big problem it is- like drug or alcohol addiction, she makes the case that that needs to change. The majority of cities around the world have some form of AA meeting or network of people but not so much for the problem gambler. Let’s help her spread the good love by recognizing the terrible stigma’s that seem so tightly wrapped around the neck of addiction. Let’s continue to speak the truth. Yell it from the rooftops!

I would recommend this book to everyone. Recommending it only to potential problem gambler’s would be a vast under-reaching of readership for this amazing and helpful material. I give it 5 stars. Great job Catherine!

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5 Stars for Catherine Townsend-Lyon’s “Addicted to Dimes”

 

AFTERTHOUGHTS

I believe that society needs to stop normalizing abusive childhoods and stop making excuses for parents and people who are abusive to innocent and dependent children. If you were physically or mentally abused as a child, you can not justify what your mother or father did by saying “my parents did the best they could with the knowledge they had.” I am not speaking to only Catherine. We all need to know this. Saying our parents did the best they could is a cop-out excuse and justification for what ever abuse they did. If saying that means what they did is justified because they didn’t know any better, how the hell can a 3 or 4 year old know any better? Weren’t they acting and saying the only things you knew as an under developed and dependent 4 year old? We have unlimited excuses for the parents and have zero tolerance for the child. That is completely backwards from the way it should be. That is not a universal or even somewhat moral and it should not be used.

We must teach our children universal principles. If we don’t want your children growing up to become compulsive gamblers, a heroin addicts, prostitutes, meth addicts, etc.; we need to quit teaching them principles from the book of hierarchy. “I am the parent therefore you will listen. I am bigger, stronger, more dominant.” That is surrendering to pecking order and power. If we want our children to not hit, steal, yell, argue, abuse, use violence, drugs and misbehave then we must teach them universal principles. We will never teach non-violence to our children by spanking or hitting them. We cannot teach respect by yelling at them. If the principle is moral and just for our children, it must be moral and just for us as the parent. We always want to be exceptions to the rule. Just like congressmen or governments. Making rules and laws but exempting ourselves from these rules. Hmm, I see a pattern here.

There was a picture on Facebook the other day. It was of a man who was hitting a tiny kitten. It had over 1 million comments. In the comments it was clear that society was outraged at this man. Some were saying the man should be killed. Some were calling the man horrible and vulgar obscenities. The unanimous vote was that the man was hated, sick, deranged and needed large amounts of therapy at the least. Is it not sickening that we have more societal outrage and protective instincts towards cats than we do towards our children? Someone please explain to me how this happens. 60% of mother’s admit to spanking/hitting their children. Some as young as 7 months!

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Many people believe that addiction is a hereditary or genetic disease. “My father was an alcoholic therefore I will become an alcoholic”. There is a big difference between a predisposition that may trigger addiction and heredity. A predisposition to addiction can make a person more susceptible to addictive behaviors, however, there is strong evidence that addiction is being brought on by a child’s surrounding environment. I have blue eyes and a round nose because of genetics. That is something I cannot change. Believing that addiction is a genetic disease I would argue is a death sentence. It instantly removes all doubt and I might as well start shooting up heroin fresh out of the womb because it is my destiny. There is more money to be made with this approach to addictionplant-164500_1280 and there is strong arguments that backs this up. After-all, if society was to accept the environmental approach, they would have to actually do something. All of the unjust, unethical and immoral standards of hypocrisy would be ran through societies powerful ringer and we would have to stop hitting our children and teaching them such blatant hypocrisy. If we don’t want more drug addicted, alcoholic, compulsive gambling, mentally and emotionally unstable people in our society, then let’s just stop raising them. It’s really that simple.

 

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13 thoughts on “Book Review – Addicted to Dimes!

  1. Hey, Thanks for writing. I found a comment of yours on Catherine Townsend-Lyon’s page and liked what you had to say. I am just coming to terms with the fact that my mother abused me in all kinds of ways-including physical. I appreciate you speaking on the fact that hitting children is an acceptable societal norm. I was told that for a long time, by the people hitting me! Imagine that.
    And many people today will say, “Yep, I was beat but that is how we were raised back then.”
    I was in the car with my mother the other day when Louis CK came on talking about hitting children. It was awkward to say the least but God I love his point. I wish we would talk about this more in our country. It really is asinine to hit tiny people.
    I will be following your blog from here out. I come from a long history of substance abuse and secrets. My mother was a meth addict, which I believe accounts for the unbridled rage she would unleash on my 8 year old body at the slightest provocation.
    I lost my uncle to heroin when he was 29 years old. My grandfather was an alcoholic and my other uncle had a liver transplant at 50..go figure.
    Most of the woman in my family are morbidly obese due to what I believe is an addiction to food.
    I have been in recovery for compulsive over-eating for 8 years now and sex and love addiction for 4 years. Blogging has uncovered truths about myself that therapy never could. Thanks again for sharing your story- and for listening to mine.
    Love, Pearl<3

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    • You are welcome. I am so sorry for what you have been through. I have been doing a large amount of studying on the effects of physical and mental abuse on young children and the findings are both appalling and staggering statistically. There is a deep rooted idea in society that “we must forgive others because forgiveness is empathy and goodness and so on. Forgiveness is not those things. Forgiveness is freedom from independence, freedom from standing your ground, and release from having to work out a confrontation with the accused. If a wrongdoer has no intention of complete apology’s, amends and is willing to do whatever is necessary to prove that they regret what they have done, why in the hell would we forgive such things? Forgiving without proper amends from the wrongdoer is what keeps evil alive in this world and it will never stop until we stand our ground. One of my favorite modern day philosophers was saying how mad it is that we are trying to take on something like global warming but yet we think it is still okay to hit and punish dependent underdeveloped babies. It sounds so ridiculous putting it that way. It is such a simple question of obvious and unethical acceptance as a collective. I was not beaten or severely punished when I was a child but I think I have finally figured out what caused my lack of mental and emotional dysfunction that resulted in my addiction and other issues. Since I have learned of the horrible manifestations from physically and mentally abusing children, I have been a strong advocator for the non-aggression principle and I am doing all I can to implement it in my life. I am sorry to hear about your uncle. I am lucky that heroin did not take me. It sure came close. It is great that you are in recovery and thank you for recommending Louis to me. I will definitely check that out. Look up Stefan Molyneux if you haven’t heard of him. By far the greatest and most intelligent philosopher I have ever heard. He has endless podcasts on you tube or go to freedomainradio.com. Best of luck to you and I wish you all the best. Come back any time. πŸ™‚

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  2. Wow! Thank you. I will be reading this book. This may be one of the best book reviews I have ever read, may be because you related – and added humor. Thank you again. I appreciate your after thoughts. Thank you for this share.

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  3. Wow… Dustin that really makes a parent think. I have racked my brain for the years of your upbringing, and I don’t really know where you fall in to all of this. So I am confused, as usual. That may be a copout, but I really am confused.

    Were you beat, spanked, yelled at, neglected, left alone too often? I’m not sure what caused your issues, other than it being pre disposed as being hereditary. And it sounds like you don’t believe that to be a truth so as your biological mom, and knowing how my upbringing was – you will have to tell me again what you think is the reason that you turned to the left instead of to the right.

    You have most certainly told me 20 times before, but remember I have terrible memory problems so it would be wonderful if you could tell me again?
    Love mom

    PS that was a wonderful book review, I have never read one so in-depth and well defined, I am extremely impressed.

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    • Hi mom, I have been confused too for a long time. It would be hard for me to believe that my addiction is from past physical abuse. I don’t know if I was spanked when I was 4 and under but if I never was then it was caused from something else. I think I was born with predispositions which caused my triggers to the behaviors but I believe there is something else going on here. It is probably inappropriate for me to mention it to you as a comment if you don’t remember me telling you. We can talk about it in more detail and once we get to that point, then I can mention it here. Thanks for commenting and liking my post btw. πŸ™‚

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  4. YOU MY DEAR…..you are just FANTABULOUS!!….Thank You for this wonderful Review spectacular!! I do have to say, I think you might have miss understood me when I said I have YOU ON MY LIST of blog Spotlights I want to create for and ABOUT YOU πŸ™‚ ….LOL….LOL.

    Not you do one ON ME!….How rude of me to ask that of you??….LOL. Of course I have a huge heart of Gratitude to you for this beautiful review & share.

    Much love & blessings my good friend,
    Author Catherine Lyon Xo πŸ™‚ πŸ™‚

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